quick (terrible) dream jot down

i had a horrible dream last night. i killed you, the one i love. it's a complicated plot. but the emotion involved is unbelivable. the main plot is that somehow i need to kill you, then half way through killing, i thought you are dead, then you kinda wake up, you look at me with great disappointment. that eye contact. then i decided (in my dream), i have to kill you. and to hide evidence, i put you into a lift that is broken down, run it to the top floor and let it fall down and blown up (like matrix), so there wouldn't be any 'shred of evidence'. Then later, i seem to be able to walk free at uni. but in my dream, i had nightmares inside the dream, feeling extremly guilty. Partially because, you seem to be able to come back to life and yet forget all about it. I feel extremely guilty of what i have done, esp the part, seeing you wake up then killed you again. It's almost like movie. Then later, i need to run away from gangsters, that's not important comparativly.

Now analysis. really, we all know you can't conclude just because someone dreamed of killing someone, that means they wanted to. I dreamed before killing a baby, then later, most of time in the dream, i was thinking how to hide the baby's body. But no way I would have incentive to kill a baby in real life. Not to mention you. But some might say, in some movie, some lunatics would be crazy about some girl, then has to kill them because they are out of their mind, or simply sick. Well, i am not like that, i am affectionate, caring, and esp towards you. I would swap position if you are in danger, not put you in danger. i was concerned publish my weird dream, with many might accuse me WHY YOU HAD THIS DREAM! YOU ARE SICK! I belive everyone's dream has been bit eccentric, it's just that most people seem unable to remember their dream. and for those who can when they wake up, who would bother to jot them down the 2nd thing in the morning (after bathroom, i.e.) like me. In fact, once i finished my 1st dream, in my dream, i was dreaming telling myself, when i wake up, i need to instantly jot it down before i forget. so i did. i fancy dream a lot, remember i dreamed about you saying yes to me months ago. I can feel the emotion and happiness even when i was asleep, isn't that wondeful.